Felix29292-->VA

2 first week of June hols

2009-06-14T18:01:00.002+08:00

1st week rocks
Me and my classmates went to Fugong for a service trip.
There we taught primary students. It was an awesome exp!
I never knew that 5.02 is so fun.
The trip is just hilariously funny.
Played CS there, stupid.
Fun fun fun!
esp when AK-47 tio gossip.
I am guilty of spreading the gossip.
However when i tell, most of the people say
"SO OBVIOUS" no nid to tell also know.
Except Daniel who is like "REALLY!!"
I want to go for a trip wif my classmates again.
Though its ex, the trip is worth it.
would like it better if it was SQ.

2nd Week
Boring boring boring, I am Mr.Lonely!
Kohar went out wif his frens most of the time. Stayout..
Thursday I went to cousin's house, dinner was marvelous
so long never eat home-cooked meal!
Finished homestay! - Went thad house on Fri.
His mom is so kind. Thx for the apple Auntie!
The way he call his mom is hilarious.
Its the same wif my cousin when she is little.
Very cute! hahaha, Keep it up Thad.
Went to Thad's cell group,
Remembered all their names.
If i nv misspell,
Bao Zong is a joker, funny!
Thad said Ann is older but smaller than him. <- MEAN
Chris is a very sociable person. sound kind.
Percy has a great voice, should copy a bit.
I was damn happy to hear jokes about other ppl
Amanda told Sharon's J1 story. funny!
- easy to remember Sharon's name as its also my sis' name
Overall impression of the Cell - FUN

What's so bad about it

2009-05-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Who just cried?
Who said a man can’t cry?
Who said a man should not express his feeling?
Who would want to keep it for himself?

After a confession,
Seems like Its the end.
After one failure,
Seems that there’s no light.

Silence engulf a person,
Hope seems futile,
What can one do,
If it is himself who created it.

Once he goes in,
There is no exit.
One plain mistake,
Stain his shirt forever.

I am inferior in many aspect but i know i have superiority.

2009-05-13T19:05:00.002+08:00

I feel like I am one of the stupidest student in my class!!
I am a game addict.
I fail my english and its related subjects.
I hate homework
I like to hang out.
I am always EMO.

I am depressed, i am living a facade "quoting from smbd".

But i know I am great in having fun. Enjoying life.
Any1 want to have fun wif me? - DONT think abt that!!
coz it will be just Dam fun If I am around! hahhahaaha.
haizzz. jkjkjk.

might Fail Econs!!!
dont want!!!

the two ppl sitting beside me absorb all my mark. they are just too clever to begin with.!!
I havent been watching movie for like ever!!! Havent been going out coz of the workload!

IF there is such question that ask me "which period is the best that u have in sch?"
my answer will b "Recess! dam fun especially when we're mocking others."

Another Weekend has come and gone away

2009-05-10T19:50:00.002+08:00

Next week I've got 4tests.
I could not focus studying, need HELP.
I might be shouting a lot about my dreadful IB life
I don't think by feeling this way makes me kiasu.
Since for me act of Kiasu-nisity are:
Not wanting to teach others what you know coz u think they could be a lot better than you.
Mugging all the time. - I play like mad!
(to those this apply)
SO, if I play when you are studying does that makes me kiasu?
Do you think I play to disturb you all? that might be possible but I dont think that way.
I played a lot but that does not mean that I want to disturb right.
I played for myself that i want to escape the stress does that concerns you all.
You have your own way of escaping stresses but my way is DotA.

Hope you can tolerate. I am not perfect.

I wish people would just change me, Hope that i could be more committed to study.
Thanks for telling me what you think abt me. but you must also consider my feeling.
I could not be what you all want me to be.

I have a very huge burden which does not concerns IB life!
I am damn tired abt that. I wish i ve never feel like that.
Hope that it change. Hope that people can tolerate.
My life is just so screwed. I need the escape time.
Need to change what I escape to.
I need to have the support of my frens. need it so badly.

Feeling Much Better

2009-04-29T17:45:00.002+08:00

The entire week since last I was like crazy I was so depressed.
Now I think I am more relaxed. Though homework can not finish!!!
Should study more!
I want to find a buddy who can help me with my studies.
Preferably one that can study with me everyday after sch, on Monday, Tuesday and Thursday.
I think i am lagging behind, I slept too much in the class. I hope that coffee could help this. But i still cant stay awake. I think i need to be awake in class. I dont understand Chem!! Need to read up!
JIA YOU FELIX.
tmr will be very scary. Hope I will be OK. weekend!!!

I do not have an I-B-rain

2009-04-25T23:40:00.002+08:00

IB started for like forever already....
I have never thought that I am so childish before.
Just read all my older post.
Never knew i was so happy then.

What makes me think this way?
- Peer pressure!
- Personal Matters!
- spiritually dry...
- IB

Presently I thought
I thought I have been doing all my homework undelayed.
When the teacher gave homework i will start doing.
I think the best answer to this is because my brain is slow.
I've seen people around me so relaxed yet they could finish all their work.
I've been like a mad man but all i do is complain and do little by little.
YET i still have 6 out of 8 homework left unfinished.
-Econs IA, Physics IA, Chem IA, English Essay, ToK essay, Math Worksheet,
Physics worksheet and I've got to do research for my EE since i dont have any topic yet.

I think i would like to:
I want to change myself, i want to study more, play less.
I want to stop procrastinating.
I want to be able to control my emotional feeling.
I want to be able to handle my problem.
I want to be a good friend to everyone.

Please help me since i dont have an IB Brain! I am a bit doomed when it comes to English
I want to improve my english, but I am too lazy! I fail my English A1, ToK and Econs miserably.
I dont know what to do.!!!

AAAAAAAAAAARGGHHHHHHHHHH

JJBC on action ^^

2008-09-16T22:44:00.003+08:00

Today is so fun. Won around 150k in stock market comp. ^^
Especially during Prep time ( should I call it laughing time)
All started after R give one silly math question to JJBC.
1/n sin x = 6 .... =.=" -> i thought all knew this question already but JJBC doesnt knoe.
It is a retarded question. if you know good, if you dont know ask me and you will shout "anjing".
After that JJBC start to laugh and somehow we all also join him laughing and we start to joke.
The worst question of the day is composed by JJBC.
Original or Crispy Sir? - what answer do you expect? hahaha^^
ahh I remembered sth about looking closely at you palm and also confusing an idiot.
K was curious abt the question and at the end K fall into the trap. XD
Today's prep is fun. Tmr i will share it wif you guys.

haven't been blogging since....

2008-09-08T21:18:00.002+08:00

Blogging is so emo.
hate to be emo, but sometimes it is so fun.
I thinks that i am becoming further from my friends.
what should i do? haha.
Btw today got PC talk about youth cyber crime.
Blogging about others bad stuff is one of them.
blog blog all the way, till dono the limit.
I need time, i dont have any free time. I desire for longer holidays.
R i want Nodame, can you give me the file
and also some other movies plz, I played too much.
Might want to change to movies. XD
I could study while watching movies but not while playing.
I did my Maths homeworks while watching.. lolx Although it is slow
but it worth the holidays.!!! peace ^^

I bought what i have been desiring ^^

2008-08-31T11:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday i went to IT fair wif some of my frens.
bought smthing called RAZER.
If i recall again i think i have been desiring
a Razer from last Desember. ^^
It's expensive though but i enjoy it. so soft
and smooth. XD
So far so good, can not resist from playing game.. sianz.
I got a lot of homework to do.. grr. B is doing Physics behind me rite now
wish i could control myself.

International Nite tmr.^^

2008-08-27T21:41:00.003+08:00

Tmr is international nite and today they are rehearsing..
I want to speacially talk about smbd who is very funny
he said," where is my harmony?" his harmony is like ->hameni o.O
omg dam funny. good evening -> gud ipuning lolx.
Today there are a lot bad things that happen to me.
Some people just dont know how deep is my previous wound
they keep mocking me of that. i hate that.
I try my best to stop what i am doing rite now hope you all can help
please just tell me gently in stead of mocking me.
I am really hurt inside. when you imitate.
I want to cry to Ray, so he can help me.
He does not offend me. hope he would protect me from
R, B, and K's mockery. T.T

Asean Dance? < Why should I?

2008-08-26T20:57:00.002+08:00

I dont think that it is so great to go to ASEAN dance?
A lot of people has been asking me to go.
annoying...
Reasons:
1- I dont want to waste money -> maybe i can use it to eat buffet
2- I dont think i would enjoy it very much, I would be like talking to the friends from my sch not the girls ( dont stay in touch with them, might seem a bit awkward to talk to them rite now)
3- I think that it is time consuming event. I would prefer to play game -> People might say that I had no life but my life is not yet to the having relationship period so i don't care much.
4- I dont think i would dance if I go. Ironic if i go to ASEAN 'dance' but I'm not going to dance.
5- I am not good looking at all > according to somebody who might be laughing rite now. Wont be able to attract anyone. haha.
6- I am not really into going to parties yet, Idk y but i could not really enjoy party yet.
Hope those who want the answer can tolerate my opinion. sigh I am really not interested to go.

Today's funny stuff!

2008-08-25T20:25:00.003+08:00

Today we had prelim, wahahaha, which is not funny at all...
But, in the SAC after prelim.... Gordon said sth!!
"Brian jago ya." <- do you know what he is refering too?
We asked,"jago apa?"
He replied," jago backstab."
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
If you know brian you will understand that.
I, personally feel that nico and soni is better for bs ing.
If you know what i mean.

Emotion over something stupid

2008-08-24T20:56:00.002+08:00

I swore sth bad about any movies and comic that read.
I just read a comic about a girl who "was" sexually abused
by her step father. (FYI there is not x rated stuff inside)
The other girl is just too irritating!!!!
B is beside and he laugh at me.
He told me sth funny which might not sound funny to u guys,
that his mom has ever throw sandals at television before!!!!
lol.!!! -> is this funny at all? for me yes

Justice/ play fair

2008-08-24T19:20:00.000+08:00

R said that it's not fair only to write about another's flaw.
I answer him, "Most people will only talk about the others in their blog."
Dont you think so? hmmm lolx.
So i want to be fair to them who i mentioned lolx.
Actually i grade myself 5 upon 10 as a friend.
Reasons for that :
-I act too *** <- i dont dare to mention sorry T.T
-I am very boisterous (hit you when i want to)
-I am very random
-I always want to win (though in this case i lose to 2 people from our class) ^^
-I prioritize mark
-I only do what I want (do not like to help others)
I, myself is trying to reduce all the stuffs above.
I hope you all can help me..

Post comments plz. about my habbit and what you think about me
I will put it up at my blog. =P

Not trying to offend but.....

2008-08-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

Everyone is not perfect but you need to be better (change)
I have good friends who are deeply troubled.
Those who are polluting the air,
Those who did it,
I want to change that's why I keep asking RG what's my bad habit
and how should i change it?
I hope you could also change. happy to hear that you are trying to.

playing and studying

2008-08-24T09:28:00.002+08:00

I love playing, idk why but i am more like an addict.
yesterday played (sianz) game. played global wif 2 of my
EiP frens. tmr got english test. need to study.
went to watch Death Race wif my fren yesterday.
It was violent. K bought Wall-e doll. smbd is jealous.
Dont worry R next time still can buy. its cute remembering
how Ron reads it. Walllllllllllleeeeeeee. i had so much fun yest.
R nv come to my room coz of G lolx. It's so sad u know. lolx.

Chem test result.

2008-08-19T20:32:00.001+08:00

My chemistry test result has been released......
Sadly I does not score full mark ->24/25
I am super!!! angry at the moment.
What a mistake that make me lose a mark losing to my greatest rival.
I am so engrossed to be reminded by my old and irritating memory.
It's a memory which i can not remove in my mind
where my "one of the best" friends told me
"lu e Chemistry kan Khak gao pi wa, co mik wa e hun khak kuan.
which means = Your Chemistry is better than mine right. How come my mark is higher!
Wt*. that memory rox man. i hate it.
I just hope i could forget about that since he is one of my "..."
-> this memory makes me sounds so kiasu and I am seriously unhappy about that.
If you are me what will you do? T.T
i want to be his friend as nothing ever happened but this memory is ....(indescribable)

2008-08-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

Today and resisting.

2008-08-18T17:15:00.000+08:00

He never say sorry to me. He said that he does not do anything that deserve to say sorry.
I do not mind this but if the same problem happens again will be your GG day.
He lied that smbd played well although he does not.
He gave me a reason why he borrows S's H so often. Should i believe? hahaha.
R said that my attitude need to be changed < and i think it's quite true i need to change myself.
I am resisting not to do my bad habit!!!

RnB!!

2008-08-17T00:26:00.002+08:00

RnB is not the song okay.
i want to talk about the difference of my two friends.
1 is so cincai, 1 is so kiasu
1 dispises him, 1 respects* him
1 love cartoon!, 1 love dota
you will know who you are...
both are really good in math, really good in talking crap
both are as lihai as shyt. always take advantage of BB( you know who you are )
but they are my good frens so fun to have them in my life so colourful
im am so random you know. i realise that but im so happy to blog about u guys.

Grammar mistake

2008-08-17T00:17:00.000+08:00

oi.. Dont be too crazy about the grammar mistake arr babu!!

"Frens"

2008-08-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

It might not be you dont be too GeeR , each point represent one people =)

-Do you realize that you are so kiasu. You are always discriminating me from the others.
You always scold me even when im doing either good or bad. There comes point where
i want to take my stand not to be too close to you. Why you never respect me like the others.
I know u respect B, R^2. why you look down on me. I have changed* so much and i tried to
be very good to you but you fail me and I will still be the same friend that you have.
I am waiting for you "sorry"

-Now I realise that I'm so bad to you. I always made fun of you, always try to taunt your patience you know how much I am sorry for that. Although i know that you are very kind. You need to stand for yourself also. Scold me if i have to, but i hope you will never haha. thanks. I do not use you to insult or expostulate wif B u know, Babu!!!
hokkien->"Babu mai me ya!!!" <- only you and R will know who is BABU!! and maybe also the lihai guy

-You are one of the most cincai person that i have ever met. its good to have a fren like you. although im so selfish you always forgive me. I know im loud but please tolerate more hahaha.
please arr you fart when you sleep. <- one guy other than me will know this hahahaha.

-You are kind but we are not that close. I know you and you know me we are just so - so. I hope we can be closer. Although we meet everyday I am just a friend to you, not great fren. wish to be your great friend. M from 1,3hill!

-You are so kind but you are fat (please reduce your weight). Sorry for making use of you everytime. I know you are kind but please change a bit of your attitude. P.S. sleep early so you do not drool in sch.

-You are just too white hahaha. look so pure, im wishing to see an improvement in your trouble. You know i will be there to help you. In the mean time just keep everything for yourself dont share your trouble hahaha. some might know already but you must not surrender. Pray for you.

-You are being taken advantage... everytime you lend him your H! I know you have unlimited B but just dont be too scared to stand up for yourself! dont let B use you!!!! basher Razor ....

I will try to be the best friend ever please help me guys. peace =P

Can be said easy (the test)

2008-08-14T18:15:00.000+08:00

The chem test is very easy (hmmm) questionably okay.
What might i got is still mystery. Maybe ***% three digits. hope so.
Played Obsidian Destroyer very well hahaha. OWning.
Fisnishing my IHS presentation slides soon. Hope it goes well.
I want to be a top student!!!!!! T.T

Chem Test tmr -->o.O

2008-08-13T21:34:00.000+08:00

subject that i love the most = Chemistry!!!
why= so simple but yet complicated
How is my preparation for tmr' s test?
-After school, i played Garena 3 o clock to 5 50
-> i tio own for 3 games.-.-" oh it's almost 6 already
-Start to worry about tmr's test...
I hope i can do well.
I really like Chemistry but I'm just to lazy to study.
Aim -> 80%++ (Wish), lets see if that come's true... haha.